My journal

2010-08-21T01:17:00.000-07:00

oh my gosh..I can't believe I have just fallen into the common trap of reading dawn yang and xiaxue's blog! It is seriously pretty addictive.

I don't know if I ll offend anyone by saying this, but colored contacts look a little bit satanic. And the big eye effect plus the fake eye lashes..it looks scary man. Do guys honestly find it attractive? I have never met one that finds it sexy. Yea I mean you do look really pretty with the "I-look -like- a- porcelain- doll- effect " and you do really stand out, but it is somewhat a cross between chucky the evil doll and a miniature drag queen! I would stare in amusement rather than admiration.

USA ROAD TRIP 2010 (Dawn & August edition)

2010-08-18T02:03:00.000-07:00

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2010-08-17T21:02:00.000-07:00

Back in Singapore

2010-08-17T20:53:00.000-07:00

It is the starting of a new semester. I m taking pretty interesting modules this sem, and my time table has never looked so good before:) Lucky me I've got all my tutorials within one balloting session.

I realize that I have been short of cash since I came back from US...DUH... so I have decided to take up tuition. My first assignment was Primary 3 Math in a tuition centre. Not bad rate. I am teaching 3 PL primary girls. Initially I thought it would be simple...to my horror I found out the reasons why parents pay someone to teach their kids!! It is so darn difficult explaining why a fraction can't be added unless the denominator is the same. All that seems to be common sense is damn difficult to teach I swear.. But I have nothing to complain about..since they are all girls ..easier to control.

My new sem's resolution is that I will pull my cap up to a 3.5 ... I will survive this semester!!!

2010-08-02T15:15:00.000-07:00

My bed seems very empty after 3 months. After living with someone for 3 months it is hard to sleep alone. Things are really different. You get to see the sweet and the unpleasant sight of yourself and the other person. It was practically a make or break boot camp. My friend broke up with her boyfriend!! For us , I think we made it man.

It makes me more certain about my directions. He is everything I dream of still. Perfect 10! But I often get sucked into believing that he is my one and only and everything to have is unique to us and us alone, sad to find out that I might just be another girlfriend. My heartbreaks, heart races and literary break into a mental shut down, whenever I see pictures of the pass not because I am jealous of her but because I am reminded the fact that this is not unique. It makes me think has someone felt this before? It drives me crazy I tell you!! Just the sheer thought of someone has done and experience the same things as I have. When I know that I am not the only one who has travelled with him abroad before, when I am not the only one who has made feel so special and loved before. I guess it is just me being pretty damn sore about everything. I know it doesn't make sense and it feels like I am largely irrational to feel this way after all we live in the present not the past. But I guess I am just scared that this would turn out the same way those turn out, I learn that how this could all be another one of those , THAT IS WHAT SCARES THE SHIT OUT OF ME.

This place is disgusting

2010-06-06T06:37:00.000-07:00

This place is seriously a shit hole. And I paid to work in this shit hole. I would never do this again. And I suggest that nobody do the stupid work and travel program. Especially not in wildwood,nj. The supervisors and managers are generally younger and dumber than you. Trust me, just because you don't look like them or speak like them they treat you like crap. I feel like I am working for a bunch of trash sometimes. My other American colleague are generally fine, but they complain about how half the stuff people do here leaves them speechless too!

Forgive and Forget

2010-05-27T20:48:00.000-07:00

Everyone knows that it is easy to forgive but it is difficult to forget. I mean how are you suppose to delete an incident from you memory bank, I mean it has to be there for some reason, perhaps it has affected you in some way, or it has been with you for a very very long period of time. Today, we were talking, and I had reflected upon myself...

When something has happened in the past, to you, or to someone else you love and care for so dearly, it is more often than not beyond your locus of control. That means that you should have to shoulder the mental burden of it. Why should you suffer for something which is you can't do anything to stop or prevent. Do not fall into the trap of voluntary victimizing yourself because of the plight that you are in. I realized that because I have always been in that position of doing so. Not only that I have been around people who is engaging in that vicious cycle. By placing yourself in the position , you would only inflict more pain upon yourself or worst still on others, the ones that you love ( I have been in that position too) . I guess if you can't do anything about it, then don't try to! You would only make yourself more miserable isn't it?

Trust me, I have learnt that the hard way..

Traveling with your other half is really a test of you relationship. First of all, you are being thrown into a land outside your comfort zone, which makes you really feisty. Second of all, you guys see each other everyday, it is almost like a pressure cooker. You can either have wonderful dish or be completely burnt. Being in the US with August has further affirmed my doubts that there is nobody else better for me. How can I complain ? He cooks, cleans and washes. We are also being thrown into this simplified version of what marriage life would look like, we have to cook, clean and pay the bills all by ourselves. And I think I might have just hit the jackpot. Lucky me.

romance bullshit.

2010-05-26T12:18:00.001-07:00

Being in a relationship can be very rewarding. It is big! Being the centre of someone's world! It feels good, knowing that someone is always there for you, someone considers your feeling in every of his/her life's decision. Sometimes you get so caught up in this that you kinda forget that you are not the only one that is in the world. This person may or may not have someone before you, but he/she would definitely have other things beside you. Forget about the romantic notion of love in the Walt Disney films of the perfect fairy tale ending when you find love. Those are just bullshit. I find myself having a really hard time coping with the disparity between reality and romance. I believe many have that too.

It is just this constant surge of disappointment when you slowly uncover the truth and fact about having a real relationship. i.e you realize that you were not the only one in your partners life, there were many before you, the feeling sucks knowing that you are not what Walt Disney portrays as "the one and only". Just the other day, I saw pictures of that. I was completely crushed. Not because I am jealous or anything. But the fact that you realize the painful truth that this is not just all about you. This is not all a perfect fairy tale. I have spinned a web of image where I am his one and only, only to realize that I was not the only one that has felt this way before. Uncovering the truth that has always been at the back of my mind, that I may just be reenacting what someone else did to, for and with him. That relationship isn't as exclusive or special as what I had always thought it was.

It is a sad truth that I believe many people has to face, that you may not be the first, the one and the only one. My manager once told me " at you age it seems as if love is everything, but 10 years down the road, you would realize that it is not, life goes on.." well, when I heard that, my initial reactions was, how pessimistic! But I slowly realize what he meant was that do not go crazy believing that love is all magical, for it is just a construct of Hollywood. The best way to get the true taste of it is to look at married couple around us, our parents etc.

You don't get surprises everyday, you don't get all lovey-dovey till death till we part kind of attitude. People get together merely because they feel that the other half would be there no matter what, they get together for the practical idea of living, they get together for the financial aspect of it, and as form of security so they would not die alone. Do not make the mistake of digging too much into the romance bullshit, or you would be really disappointed.

beautiful life

2010-05-04T10:45:00.000-07:00

Nom Nom Nom..

The reason why I am FAT....

WHY SO SERIOUS???

time,love and hope.

2010-04-20T07:54:00.000-07:00

When things get too overwhelming, it just doesn't go your way. You just really really want to give up don't you? You really feel like burning your books, breaking glass? Just want to dig a hole in the ground and live in there, where it is void of all troubles and worries. You question yourself why do you have to do this? What exactly are you doing? What if I had just given up? End it all.

Through all the pain and agony, the answers to the questions of life, doubt, love and pain have always been in you. Why do you bother putting in so much effort loving someone? Because you love him. Why do our parents scream at us? Because they care about us.

I have to admit it, it is really difficult to see these answers when life gets tough, when all the frustration builds up. It is this blindness that have plagued us with the feeling of helplessness, lost and sorrow. All it takes is some tears to clean our eyes before we can see this answers once again. Time would heal all wounds, love speeds up the process and hope will carry us through .

time, love and hope are the greatest gifts to mankind.

2010-04-20T06:47:00.000-07:00

I am feeling super stress now.

Have a test tomorrow, feeling a little uneasy. Feeling the heat in my dingy study hole. I need a beak seriously.

2010-04-09T05:45:00.000-07:00

Basket...WHY OH WHY is my goal of a B+ so far away from me?? Why is it that the amount of effort that I put in does not reflect on my grades...This is so stupid. Was looking at the fruit stall auntie and thinking to myself, why don't I just quit studying and start selling fruits or something...I think she makes a hell lot of money !

2010-03-27T09:36:00.000-07:00

Dawn theory of jealousy:

People in our lives are categorize into different groups, these categories are stacked upon each other in the shape of a pyramid. The least important forms the base of the pyramid, while the most important people in our lives are in the tip of the pyramid. Acquaintances are at the base, those that we say hi - bye to , they are the least important people in our lives for which we can conveniently do without. Immediate family and spouses hold the key position. SO ..where do girlfriends and ex-s stand?? I ll assume it is the next most important position in a men's life.. Being in the same category so many others who had once played your role results in jealousy, malicious competition to try to stand out and be different from the previous one, just as how in an audition, participants try to out win the other competitors, girl feel the need to justify themselves to establish a strong hold in their lover's heart. This is an innate human reflection.

Augustine theory of circle:

Our lives are like huge empty drawing blocks, every person who walks into your life leaves a circle, the diameter of the circle is determined by how much you value this person in your life. The more important he/she is the bigger the circle. However, the catch is, the size of the circle may vary. It may grow bigger as someone is promoted from the role of a friend to a girlfriend. While demerits may reduce the size of the circle (lack of confidence, cheating.etc)

2010-03-06T08:40:00.000-08:00

Well though I am not doing anything..it still seems as if time is flying by..studying for mid terms..for the first time I have actually realised that you have gotta study for uni..lol...

Thankfully I have someone to study with...It is great to have a wonderful companion there all the time...Can't wait for May !!! I ll be going to USA...yea-aye-e-aye-aa its a party in the USA..would be going there for 3 months!! Can't wait for all the exams and assignments to end...so that I can slack..lol

busy studying??

2010-02-10T23:29:00.000-08:00

2010-02-05T07:59:00.000-08:00

I don't know
About tomorrow
I just live from day to day
And I don't borrow from its sunshine
For its skies may turn to gray
And I don't worry about my future
For I know what Jesus said
And today He walks beside me
For He knows what lies ahead
Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to under-understand
But I, I know, I know, I know who holds tomorrow
And I, I know who holds, who holds my hand

This song popped reminds me of my primary school days!

Brought a smile to my face:)

2010-02-05T06:59:00.000-08:00

This week has been quite a week! Mr.Kang was sick! Its a bringing of a heartache to see him unwell...

But he is all recovered and well:) Thank goodness..

My days are weaved around schoolwork , Mr.Kang, my family and my friends. I am really having the best time in my life. There is a fine balance of work and life, stress and challenge. I absolutely love it right now. Sometimes I wished that everyday would be the same from this day forth and we would always stay young and in school:) Hmmm..but time would pass, days go by, we would all grow . I look forward to what would I be like 5 years or even 20 years down the road, with fear , anticipation and excitement. What I would really look forward to is my how I would be able to get a job, get a family and move onto the next phase of life. What I really fear and dread is changes. I am afraid that I would not be a consistent person. That I would not be of someone who act upon my words, that I would betray myself and morph into someone else. I wish I could say that I am confident about what is planned for me, but I am not, I fear from the depths of my heart that I would lose a part of me.

I wish to proclaim to be someone of fine character, I strive towards that. Sometimes I fail. Why am I not consistent? How can I fail? I wish I could look at some people without judging them, but I am seriously not that noble. Is there anyone out there who can do that ? I feel self-derived emotions such as hate, resentment and jealously. Simply miserable I tell you. This interesting and uncontrollable emotions would take over your logic, rationality you are basically an impaired person, chained by your emotions. It is horrible. Why would anyone do that to themselves? More often than not you would hurt the closest people around you ,people whom you love. You feel as if the only way you can vent this feeling is to hurt someone around you, so that they would feel the same way as you do, so that someone can relate to you. This is a very sadistic thought, but nobody likes to be alone.

Damn.. I hate it whenever I feel like this. I despise myself, for not having the ability to just let go...

My lovely christmas present:)

2010-01-21T08:35:00.000-08:00

Mr. Kang put up these pictures of New York on the walls of my room:)

This makes my day..waking up to a nice wall every morning..

Flowers at my bed frame!!

Not forgetting my window grill:)

August speaks german.

2010-01-15T17:18:00.000-08:00

Dawn Tan Hui Qi9:14 AM

thats in eins minuten!

Augustine Kang9:15 AM

die ist funfzehn Minuten

Dawn Tan Hui Qi9:15 AM

Sehr gut..sprichst du deutsch ?

Augustine Kang9:16 AM

ja spreche ich Deutsches sehr gut

9:17 AM

ich habe mich von Ihnen versteckt

9:18 AM

ich bin ein Experte in den Sprachen wie franzosisches, spanisch, deutsch

9:18 AM

verstehen sie mein Deutsches?

9:19 AM

hello?

Dawn Tan Hui Qi9:19 AM

Ja...naturlich..

9:20 AM

hold on..i am trying to paste this convo on my blog..

Baby Baby Baby..

2010-01-14T05:38:00.000-08:00

This song is played on the Victoria Secrets show..

I really love watching this video because these women seem so confident of themselves. They are so comfortable of themselves that they can walk down the streets butt naked!

Doesn't it seem that sometimes you may not be as good as someone else or you feel as if there is always someone who is better than you? The feeling sucks really...but if you think of it ...everybody is different! How can you say that an apple tastes better than an orange? They are both equally good in their own ways..

quick update

2010-01-13T05:37:00.000-08:00

School just started..

Going to end my work by the end on Jan.. today is suppose to be my second day of school but i could leave my house because the stiches on my foot were hurting like a bitch...so i decided to stay home to play guitar hero with Mr.Kang.. Well...Mr.Kang was really sweet he bought me lunch and magazines and juice and sandwiches ..well it is no wonder my steady horizontal gain..

I feel like a pig sometimes...but i am happy:)

I really cannot ask for more.. we have been spending alot of time together...but it just doesn't seem enough..i have so much to tell him..be it in words or just spending time stoning the day away..splendid!

Work

2009-12-23T04:59:00.000-08:00

I am blogging now because Mr.Kang barred me from entering my bedroom..He is doing something in there..oh wells...so here is my day..

I started work after 2 days of training...I am working for Singapore Duck and Hippo tours..well my job scope is providing customer service at the counter..so yea..if anyone is interested in touring Singapore..you know who to get...

I worked at Singapore Flyer outlet today..

2009-12-18T01:04:00.000-08:00

2009-12-17T16:44:00.001-08:00

Looking back

2009-12-16T18:04:00.000-08:00

Listening the christmas carols and browsing through all the pictures on Facebook...

Woah..what a year?! I have done so much things this year..I never would have dreamt I would be able to do!

Looking back at my JC days...I wasn't really proud of somethings that I have done. Some of the mistakes I have made is still haunting me up till today.

Sorry to all those I might have hurt, while being so silly and inconsiderate. I really hope you all would forgive me if I ever offended you in any ways...

Time to reflect..

In the past I did not really see the links between my actions and the results. Somethings, in fact many things I have done may not really placed me in a favorable light. Impressions of me in the past might have been that I am a cheap slut, desperate loser..I wasn't aware that what I am doing at that time had such negative implications. I have truly realized that, and I will do my very best to change that, from the inside out..

Sometimes I wished there were ways for which I can erase the past. But the damage has been done. So all I can do now is to learn from it and move on.

This year..I have learnt so much stuff about myself. I have learnt how important it is to love myself before loving someone else. I have learnt how to let go of some stuff. I have learnt to appreciate the fine things in life, like a rose or like how beautiful the sunset is .

I don't want to sound noble or as if I have truly understand how life works. Life is so complex, annoyingly difficult to grasp, but yet this is why it is so worthy to live.

I would say that this year has been a fruitful year. Thank you all who has stayed by my side. Thank you all who has miraculously walked into my life. Everyone in your life whether it is someone pleasant or not so pleasant are there for a reason. They each bring an important message, they teach you more about yourself.

2009-12-14T06:00:00.000-08:00

This is what I wake up to every morning. It lights up my day..to know that I am effectively the luckiest person in this universe. Yup. He is this pretty damn awesome and fantastic love I have been talking about.

2009-12-10T10:31:00.000-08:00

Making choices sucks big time:

Thinking about quitting cheer. Training is crazy. It is so much that it drains me..I am always so tired and so lazy to do any work..always sleeping during lecture..this sem was crazy..was screwed up..I am so occupied with cheer that I barely have time for my family..It doesn't make sense..I am a full time daughter, full time sister, full time lover and a full time friend... part time cheerleader..

Cheerleading is fantastic.. it is fun .. it gives me the adrenalin rush whenever I perform.. it is my passion... but family over passion... if i was given 48 hrs a day.. I would do it man...without a doubt.. but sadly we only have 24 hrs a day...

It makes me really sad to have to let one go, but I think it would be more practical to let cheer go... I don't think I would regret this choice... now is the bitch..how am I suppose to let my captain know?? Sigh..I hate quitting...

2009-12-03T04:28:00.000-08:00

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves."

Finally saw the profound meaning behind this verse. I am living in this verse now. Please pardon me for being so mushy now a days.. I am love drunk ..

The feeling is so real. It strikes me.. I wake up every morning feeling pure bliss. I feel happy, overwhelm with happiness. No words can describe how i feel. Nobody can understand how intensely i feel..except for one person:)

I love how he stares at me deeply.

I love how he caresses my hair.

I love how he hold my hand.

I love how he makes me feel about myself.

I love every single moment we spend together.

I can just go on and on and on forever...there is so much on my mind that all the words in the world can't express or describe even 10% of what I am feeling.

To put it simply: I love you.

2009-11-24T15:56:00.000-08:00

I love this song..brings back so many beautiful memories ...

Doesn't it??

2009-11-13T19:40:00.000-08:00

This amazing feeling I have in me..

Never thought it was possible to find someone so perfect for me. Used to Day dream about this special someone since I was a kid. Someone who is romantic, who would sweep me off my feet, someone who would take my breath away. Never thought it was possible, until now. I am still finding it hard to believe that this is true. I have found myself in him.

2009-11-10T17:37:00.000-08:00

Exams are coming..well I am not really stress.. will just try my best and see what I get. That is all that really matters guys..no point fretting over not being able to do well..whats the point?? HAHA..

Well as you know there is a heated topic on my facebook comment status. Feeling like a queen bitch now. Let me clarify.. Everyone is on the same page that is why it is so heated!! Someone has to raise it up one day..let it be me. As what I have written on Action and Reaction...We are the reaction of the action. It is not something we can help with. When you do an action ..you must anticipate the reaction!! Don't blame the reaction man..

Sadly..sometimes people don't see the root of the reaction.. It is deeper than what you think it is.. it is not the album..it is the compilation of a couple albums!!!! In fact it goes beyond the albums...think about it..it's not me ...its you.

Hmm then again..let me round off by saying this..WE MIGHT NOT BE TALKING ABOUT THE SAME PERSON.

2009-11-06T15:56:00.000-08:00

Don't really have much time to blog this days..Had a relaxing week ..no cheer practice, no big tests(well the exams are coming:( thats why!) ...

But thankfully I have many wonderful friends!! So it is not so bad. Today, my sis would be taking her graduation pic..I wonder how long more does have to take before it is my turn! University can be fun ..but I am looking forward to working.. earning something..not having to live off my parents..

2009-10-31T21:46:00.000-07:00

So much is going on in my life now..Its fantastic!

I am beginning to see who I really am, what I really want and what I can do. I always felt that I was good for nothing, that I was just a brainless empty vessel, but now I can actually see myself working and being successful in the future. Thought that I could only be a housewife, but now I believe that I am capable of being an independent woman. I have found my strengths and realized my weakness. It is very important that you identify your strengths and acknowledge your weaknesses, as this would mean that you have found who you really are as an individual. Strength, meaning what you are good at, not being over-confident though, as everybody is good and talented in some ways. Weaknesses, meaning the mistakes that you tend to make, you must consciously realize that you are not perfect(nobody is!), but that doesn't make you less of a person, we must give ourselves concessions, and not try to be something that you are not. This is my principle, it governs my thoughts and actions. I believe everyone should establish their own set of rules and values which they believe in, as it is the principles that define and shape your character.

Someone beautiful

2009-10-24T21:40:00.000-07:00

I have an announcement:

Someone wonderful walked into my life. Perfect, wonderful, lovely, awesome. Its difficult for me to explain how I am feeling.. but it is amazing.. he completes and adds value to my life. Its truly magical how I feel that I am able to do anything and everything, I feel that I am a better than what I was, everyday seems so precious to me now, I look forward to waking up in the morning and going through my day. This is perfect. Everything seems perfect. I can see something beautiful and good in everything now. Glowing with happiness. I wish that time could just freeze. Every moment seems like gold. I could just sit next to him doing nothing, in fact I wish I could do that everyday! I have found the missing piece of me !!

Finally!

2009-10-24T20:55:00.000-07:00

Yes! I have finished my busiest week of my semester! And i survived!!

Had my last performance. Really glad that i had went through with it..really wanted to drop out of the performance but my cheer friends had really brought me through this..really thankful to have such awesome cheer friends:) :)

My mum isn't really pleased with me because she can't see me all the time...and it gets really tough..but I am still a going to go ahead with it because I really really really enjoy it..it makes me feel good about myself that I actually am capable of something:) I have never felt this before...I use to look at my friends an really admire how talented they are ( in sports, dance, music) .. never thought I could do something like that.. that is why cheerleading means so much to me..

came to a full circle.

2009-10-16T21:29:00.000-07:00

I am having issues...I can't seem to stop smiling nowadays..hmmm..I don't know why, but everyday seems to be a happy day to me:)

Maybe because someone really wonderful, lovely, beautiful and fantastic just walked into my life?

Really thankful and grateful about that.

2009-10-13T07:38:00.000-07:00

Didn't bring my handphone to school today. I almost killed myself.

It is strange because we are so used to carrying our phones with us that it is almost like part of us. I felt largely insecure without my phone , as if I had lost touch with the entire world, that made me lose my mind! Thankfully my kind friends are nice enough to lend me their phone:) :)

I am feeling very very stress because I have lots of things due next week . With my tests, assignments and cheer, I can barely find time for myself...thats why I make sure I spend sometime on my blog to keep my sanity intact.

Things going on next week:

1) South Asian Test

2) German Test

3) Physics Test

4) History 1500 WORDS Essay

5) Cheer performance. (24th of Oct)

I can't handle this man. 6 mods is not easy. Somebody save me.

Feeling moody

2009-10-12T08:36:00.000-07:00

Hey look I need some time off okay. ITS CALLED A BREAK UP FOR SOME REASON. I want you to move on and I want to move on...but all this is draining mentally man. Not working. I dont know why am I feeling obligated to even explain. Geez.

Dont feel like talking and explaining no more. If you are going to probe anymore ..I ll just ignore you. Dont make me do that dude.

2009-10-11T09:21:00.000-07:00

Yes. I have received you letter. Truly am sorry that I can't be together with you. Glad to know that you understand how I felt about us and why there was a need for the break up. Regret that this has affected you so much. Wished I could do something about it , but I can't . Feel really bad for putting someone through this shit, Sorry for disappointing you. Hurts me as much as it hurts you. Trust me ...its not easy..

2009-10-10T08:45:00.000-07:00

I, (Bride/Groom), take you (Groom/Bride), to be my (wife/husband), to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part.

I, (name), take you, (name), to be my [opt: lawfully wedded] (husband/wife), my constant friend, my faithful partner and my love from this day forward. In the presence of God, our family and friends, I offer you my solemn vow to be your faithful partner in sickness and in health, in good times and in bad, and in joy as well as in sorrow. I promise to love you unconditionally, to support you in your goals, to honor and respect you, to laugh with you and cry with you, and to cherish you for as long as we both shall live.

I (name), take you (name) to be my (husband/wife), my partner in life and my one true love. I will cherish our union and love you more each day than I did the day before. I will trust you and respect you, laugh with you and cry with you, loving you faithfully through good times and bad, regardless of the obstacles we may face together. I give you my hand, my heart, and my love, from this day forward for as long as we both shall live.

FOUND THIS WHILE DOING SOME RESEARCH.
FELT THAT IT WAS MEANINGFUL ..

belly piercing

2009-10-10T03:38:00.000-07:00

Just got screamed at by my mum..because i wanted to pierce my belly button..haha..
she was like " you trying to be funny is it? That is so-LIAN"
and she said I cannot have a tattoo too!
so yup..there goes my dream. Looks like I ll just continue dying my hair funky colours:(

Charlie bit me and it really hurts.

2009-10-09T23:50:00.000-07:00

2009-10-09T21:11:00.000-07:00

Let me describe you my feelings 1 month after the break up..

Loving someone is like casting your net into the open sea. You never know what you are going to get back. I threw my net far and wide hoping I can get some big ass fishes.. but my as of me and Teng , I threw my net out and my net was so badly torn .. Teng tore a BIG HOLE in net. And i lost all my fishes!! basket..well I am not blaming you Teng..you did it unintentionally... Seriously please do not get me wrong..i am not trying to make you feel bad. I really hope you are okay..

I am so not will to cast my net again. So I am not going to fish anymore. My net gets torn easily! People like to tear my net .. Cos it is easy to tear man..

2009-10-06T18:13:00.000-07:00

" A smile is the most beautiful thing that can happen on Earth.."

Heard this on television from some Iraqi comedian. Yup..I truly believe that smiles are the most wonderful thing... And the best part of it is ...IT IS CONTAGIOUS..If you smile and I smile then everybody in the world would smile!!!! How awesome..SMILES :)

Purple streaks.

2009-10-05T05:02:00.001-07:00

Time for a change.

2009-10-04T10:09:00.000-07:00

Time for a change.

Two weeks break seem like a closure to a small chapter of my life. I have settled down into my New house. New friends and New haircut. Lets take it a deep breath and pause. Smiling at the past and looking on towards the future. Yea..damn bloody difficult and scary But I am enjoying every second of it and I would not trade this things for anything else. I am really thankful and happy with my life now.

WHERE MY PARTY PEOPLE AT?

2009-09-30T18:35:00.001-07:00

Went to party last night..experiencing the hang over magic.

I am sitting in Burger King typing this stuff...

Don't really like to or want or even can remember anything that happened last night..

but there was one part which was quite cute..

When the lights were on.i actually had a rather intellectual convo with the guy who was dancing with me..actually found out his name and stuff..and we even shook hands..SO CUTE..

That was the only one thing i can remember..the rest was just blurred.

WHERE MY PARTY PEOPLE AT!

Moved.

2009-09-29T06:06:00.000-07:00

I have just moved into my new house..

So not used to it..keep getting lost around the condo..and i keep banging into my bed and tables.

You can see lots of scars on my legs now..lol

Anyways..today at hoyu's wardrobe fitting..super throw face..

the stylist took an outfit and brought it to the handicap toilet for me to change..so she just stood there and said, " Change.." and i was stunned..how am i suppose to change when there is someone is someone in front of you?? So i just whack..super throw face..wasnt wearing the nicest underwear...ahh...

Ringing in my head..

2009-09-25T01:11:00.000-07:00

Hmmm..i know it is cheesy but i have a break up song..

I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU CRY..

There Is No Tender Way To Say It's The End
and So Win Or Lose
i Am Forced To Choose
between A Lover And A Loving Friend
let Me Hear You Say
how You Curse The Day
you Opened Up Your Heart To Me
that You Ever Invited Me In
tell Me I'm The Loser And You Win

i Don't Want To See You Cry
i Beg You Try
not To Let The Pain I'm Causing Reach Your Eyes
i Don't Want To See You Cry
aim Your Words Like Spears
don't Break Me Up By Breaking Down In Tears

hide Your Pain But When Push Comes To Shove
don't Keep Your Pride
locked Deep Inside
rage Against The Dying Of My Love
don't Sigh My Name
give Me All The Blame
call Me Heartless Call Me Cruel
and Accuse Me Of Dealing In Lies
just Don't Let My Leaving Cloud Your Eyes

i Don't Want To See You Cry
i Beg You Try
not To Let The Pain I'm Causing Reach Your Eyes
i Don't Want To See You Cry
aim Your Words Like Spears
don't Break Me Up By Breaking Down In Tears

dreams Come... Dreams Go
some Fade... Some Grow
dream On, Dream On
you've Got No Dream On
after I've Gone

Moving house..

2009-09-25T00:49:00.000-07:00

I ll be moving house on mon!

Well the interesting part is that I have never seen my house before! I think i ll be seeing it for the first time on Mon, after school...maybe when I get to my new place..i ll have to call my parents to come and pick me up from the guard house...

Oh well who cares...there is a pool there!! EVERYBODY CAN COME AND CHILL BY THE POOL!!

Yeah!!!!

Relationships are a bitch.

2009-09-23T18:45:00.000-07:00

Sometimes things happen so quickly that everything changes in the blink of an eye.

School work is like a mess, cheerleading is super fun but terribly draining..I need to take sometime off to reflect...

My relationship is over..and I think I am going to enjoy single life for a long long time:)

Love complicates things and I hate it..

If only people can be friends because they enjoy time with each other. No strings attached..

Is having a boyfriend really that great? You would just end up feeling a jaded as me in a relationship..when both parties fail to meet expectations..or when one puts in so much that he/she is completely drained. Why bother reserving you time and energy in someone when you can have so many friends and loved ones around you?

I want you to know

2009-09-21T02:55:00.000-07:00

I want you to know that looking back it is hard..but i want you to have someone who is committed to being your girlfriend..and i really don't think i can be that someone..

i want you to move on...so i am already gone..

Speaking my mind

2009-09-13T18:19:00.000-07:00

you said that you are sure that I am what you want ..and I am what you need..how do you know?

you said that you have seen enough girls to be sure that I am the one for you..my dear..you are only 19..you need to go out there and see more girls! I hate the feeling of feeling jilted again..

i love colours..

2009-09-12T20:08:00.000-07:00

BGR?

2009-09-12T16:55:00.000-07:00

Been thinking about everything you said to me..

Initially I was very persistent that I would never get back together with you...but to come to think of it ..maybe we would each go our way and realise that we are back together again..maybe we would each go our way and find our real other half... well its hard to say.. Let just let fate decide..I don't want to think about love at this point in my life...It is too big a commitment ..especially when I am so busy with school and all..relationship is not my main priority now.

Maybe you are really going to change for the better.. maybe you are going to just change temporarily and switch back if we start a fresh...I am not trying to say that it you are just doing this for show..but sometimes we really don't know the shit we are going to put ourselves through.. I am going to give you the benefit of a doubt..will not blame you if you had enough and decide to go for someone else..so i am going to use this period of time(god knows how long) to put us both to the test..if we are really for each other...we will be together eventually ..if we are not..then i ll wish you all the best.

So Sorry.

2009-09-08T19:06:00.000-07:00

I am so sorry that I had ended this so quickly, but I don't want to drag this anymore...

Well it was partially my fault for not telling you what is going on in my mind.. I guess I was so afraid of the thought that I might lose you, that I kept bottling up everything inside...I loved you so much that I m beginning to lose myself...But at the end of the day, I was the one who decided to leave this. I felt stress , I felt obligated to make you happy. I panicked whenever I saw your messages. My love for you has made me into this whole different person, my only purpose in the relationship was to make you happy, little did I realize that I was slowly eroding myself away. When I got into Uni, I started thinking if this was really what I had wanted. Spending time away from you has made me respect learn to respect myself. I am Dawn now...not Teng's girlfriend. I no longer feel compelled to fulfill a certain set of responsibility. Sorry for being so selfish..but I think I gotta live my life now..be who I really am.

The 2 yr relationship ended so quickly , don't think you are taking it very well...I know you really wanna be with me and you promised to be the type of boyfriend that I am looking for..but my dear..I have tried being the girlfriend of your dreams..and it failed .. you would end up being so upset and unhappy..I have been there and done that..Because I love you ..I don't want you to put you through the same thing that I had gone through. This is you. You can't change yourself to make someone happy. But I believe you can find someone out there for you that fits you perfectly. Though it is difficult seeing you with someone new..but I ll be happy for you. It is going to be really bitter, but there is no point chaining you down when I know that we are not suited for each other. Only time can heal.

I love you but I ll have to let you go. Please do not hate me for this, I believe that you would look back and understand that what I am doing now is best for both of us.

Love you loads ,

Dawn

your best friend forever:)

Bloody Busy.

2009-08-29T08:28:00.000-07:00

Basket..I can't believe that school work is trickling in so damn quickly..I refuse to accept that you have to read the readings..seriously..i went through AC without really reading my GP package..

I have cheerleading on Mon, Wed and Fri from 6:30 to 9:30pm , Salsa on Tues 7:30 to 9:30pm and Boyfriending Fri night to Saturday..In addition to that I am doing 6 modules this semester ..Basket..am I retarded or what..

Are you made of toothpicks?

2009-08-17T08:45:00.000-07:00

I am making this a big hoo-ha because it just doesn't sound logical to me.

Teng and I just had a conversation..he told me that his army friend just gave him a back rub..and found a knot in his muscles(Teng is having a stiff shoulder). So he helped Teng relief his stiff shoulders. Well..everything sound normal right? Wrong!>!!?!

Teng never allows me to give him a back massage. Who in the right mind would refuse his girlfriends back rub?! Well Teng feels that I don't know how to massage for him..and that I might injure him if I rub his shoulders. What kind of shit logic is that?! So his friends can massage for him while I can't? Seriously kneading and rubbing is not going to injure you unless you are made of toothpicks. Are you made of toothpicks my dear?

Insects everywhere!

2009-08-16T00:18:00.000-07:00

I had golf lessons this morning, and I was wearing a polo tee. I was with my coach at one of the holes when my coach asked me to look to the sky. Strange... initially I thought ang mohs have a funny way of coaching ( my coach is ang moh) . Then I realized , I had a hugh hickey on my neck . Thanks to Teng . My coach asked me if I was bitten by something..and started snickering. He asked if Teng was involved .. I insisted that it was a mosquito. He laughed and said that I must be careful of large mosquitoes around. Basket ..he went through the whole golf game talking about insects. When we were putting into one of the holes..he told me that if i couldnt get in within 2 strokes I had to explained how I was bitten by this mosquito. Bare in mind that Teng's brother was there. I was super embarrassed today.

Stroll in the park

2009-08-16T00:11:00.000-07:00

Zhu Ying , Jo , Keley and I went to the botanical gardens for a picnic!! Had a great time!

Will get use to strolling in the park since I will be going there often in the future..well as you all know I am a Tai Tai to be:)

Blame it on the alcohol.

2009-08-13T05:34:00.000-07:00

Oh my gosh. I had one of the wildest nights last night. Went clubbing with my new friends and Zhu ying. Was kinda drunk. Don't remember much..but I just remembered having a hard time to stand up. I had to keep leaning onto smth..damn sei...Zhu ying kept complaining that I was damn heavy..i kinda leaned on her..lol..that poor girl.. so sorry babe. Did I kiss a girl ? Hmmm..I am super embarassed by my lack of poise...oh man..not good at all..hope nobody remembers me..I shall try not to drink so much..sorry to all my guy friends who had to baby sit us..

Cool Graffiti

2009-08-10T05:38:00.000-07:00

go check out this website..it is damn cool! http://www.stumbleupon.com/tag/photos/

2009-08-10T00:26:00.000-07:00

2009-08-09T07:58:00.000-07:00

Oh man...school is starting already! So fast..the 8 months of break...oh well..time to work it baby.

A little bit scared actually...The thought that i would not have time for Teng. and to play sims 3.

Hmmm well there are times when i rant about Teng being such a horrible boyfriend and stuff . Maybe I should start saying some nice stuff about him.

1) He is so dumb that I know he would never ever lie to me. I trust him that he would never cheat

on me...

2) He is always punctual and super responsible.

3) He is good at accounting . He handles the money and stuff in our relationship.

4) He calls me every night without fail.

5) He looks after me. During that time of the month, I may become a little hysterical, yet the poor boy bears all the shit that I throw at him without fail. He become extremely thoughtful to my physical needs.

6) He would serve me food when we are at the chinese restaurant.

7) He would try his best to have desert with me ..thought I know he doesnt like sweet stuff.

Food Blog.

2009-08-08T08:06:00.000-07:00

http://muff-cup.blogspot.com/

Alright..my sis is having a food blog dedicated to food..like duh..

Hmmm..it features some of her cupcakes, muffins and stuff..should check it out...

If anyone wants to order her cakes and muffins and stuff do contact me...

Orientation 09

2009-08-08T08:02:00.000-07:00

Oweek 09 is over!

Damn fun..super burnt right now..met a lot of fun , great , cute people..Feeling the love man..

Terrible cooking skills. (TENG)

2009-07-27T05:18:00.000-07:00

Today Teng had a half day off..so he came over in the morning ..wanted to cook brunch together..
Well..both of us are not the best cooks as you know..
So we decided to cook maggie noodle..simple right..
He decided to eat 2 packets and so week cooked 3 packets of noodle in one big pot. NOT GOOD.
When the noodles were ready..we added the seasoning..and meat balls that we bought earlier. The soup was drying up ..so we needed to cook the veggie(KAI LAN) fast..i told teng to hurry and that stupid boy..dump all the veggie on top of the noodles (PLEASE NOTE THAT THERE WERE NO SOUP ON THE NOODLES TOP) We panicked. We were afraid the veggie would not be cooked..so teng started poking the veggie trying to push it to the bottom..hmm Chopsticks are not the smartest utensil to use..he poke hole on the leaves and the veggies was still on top..
I revived the noodles by adding more water..but the noodles became soggy cos we cooked it too long..Finally when the veggie were cooked . We served the dry soggy noodles..Teng cut his favourite big tofu cube and dumped it on topo of the noodles..DIDNT TAKE ANY PICS BECAUSE IT LOOKED DISGUSTING. had to add a whole lot of black pepper to give it flavour..

I don't know how can anyone fail cooking instant noodles man.

New GPS

2009-07-22T21:27:00.000-07:00

My dad just got a new car..toyota Camry...In my opinion, it looks like a whale. It is silver and bulky. Anyways..it came with the new GPS..as you know anything that is free cant be that good. So my dad tried out the new GPS with routes he travel everyday. He deliberately oppose to where the GPS instructs..and then comments on how lousy it is..WHY? I have no IDEA! But it is annoying the shit out of me..we dont need a GPS in Singapore for god's sake..and it is the most irritating piece of crap I have every seen..everytime I wanna say something..I would be interupted with a electronic voice saying " 300 metres turn right" then "150 m tun right" followed by " 50 m turn right" as if thing weren't bad enough..it rounds it up by saying " Now turn right" ..Car rides are suppose to be peaceful..I like to drive and sing out loud especially when I am alone in the car...but this machine is simply cramping my style man..

2009-07-20T21:19:00.000-07:00

Don't let this moment slip..

2009-07-20T09:20:00.000-07:00

Dawn

2009-07-20T09:00:00.000-07:00

I have a beautiful name.

You are beautiful.

2009-07-20T08:55:00.000-07:00

I hate Durians.

2009-07-20T08:24:00.000-07:00

Drove him nuts!

Drove me crazy!

More tea for you darling?

2009-07-20T08:12:00.000-07:00

Having afternoon tea after a game of golf..Love 'em scones baby. Gimme Gimme more

You make me smile like the sun.

2009-07-14T20:21:00.000-07:00

My buddy is gone!

2009-07-14T20:10:00.000-07:00

4 hours after they remove my buddy

Accidentally scratched it...opps

Just yesterday I went to remove my buddy(mole) of 19 yrs! So as to improve my luck ( tear mole..not good) and also to stop annoying questions such as .."i think you have something at your eye".
The doctor cut it open and I had three stiches..he said that if my skin is good ..I wouldnt have a scar..I dont know what is that suppose to mean..but oh well lets hope my skin is good.
Hmmm..initially when my mum's friend reccommended the doc..we both assumed that it was a cosmetic surgeon or something..but turn out to be it was a women's clinic doctor! I had my 10 Mins operation done on the bed where pregnant ladies do their maternity check up( It had the leg support thingy..you know when mama's deliver..they had to put their legs on that support thingy) Was quite tempted to try opening my legs...but there was a nurse in the room..But anyways..to think about it ..I must have been crazy to let the doctor operate on me..it was a five minutes decision actually..lets just hope that everything would be fine!

2009-07-12T22:00:00.000-07:00

Just yesterday Teng was humming that sean kingston song..whats the tittle...hmmm is it Fire Burning ..or is it Fire Burning on The Dance floor..and it really pissed me off..I mean ..i am going through a clubbing dry spell and he is humming this kind of clubbin tracks infront of me?! Trying to spite me ?! To make things worst..he has been clubbing every fortnightly..and girlfriends are not allowed. I feel like a complete loser.. even my mum and dad went disco at their time..and I am playing farmville on facebook...I told my mum about this issue..and she said.."why isn't Teng bringing you to club? Papa and I used to go together all the time.." Nice..like that makes me feel better..
I just feeling punching Teng sometimes.

Hello Good Afternoon!

2009-07-12T21:42:00.001-07:00

I have stopped working already! Yea!

My colleagues had this pot luck party where every made something from home and brought it over for lunch! They were sooo nice and patient with me...oh I love them:)

Then on my last day..my boss brought me to Jumbo to eat! They told me that I was a good employee:) They said I was a good receptionist! Wonderful..For all yall suckers out there ..I am a good receptionist!!!

Through this 3 months or so..my colleagues really took care of me..they treated me like a little girl! Oh happy days of my childhood in the office!

I would always remember my very special colleague Julis..the credit officer who showered me with love...she is the coolest grandmother I ever known..I remembered that she would always share her cheng teng with me ...she would give me an apple even though she had only 2 left..and share the other one with my manager..should would walk all the way to my desk (she sat quite far from me) just to give me marie biscuts!

Well Thanks alot my wonderful colleagues!

Cameron Highlands

2009-07-06T05:55:00.000-07:00

Will be going Cameron Highlands with Teng...I know I know I abit KooKoo..wanted to go Tioman initially then how come suddenly change to Camerons..Don't burn me in hell for following my boyfriend all the time okay..Here is the reason for the sudden change..
1) I saw my colleagues pics of Tioman..not the prettiest in the world..the
waters are just slightly clearer then Singapore ..and the place is quite old.
2) The transport there is a bitch..you've gotta take a bus ...followed by a boat ride to 5 different islands before reaching the final island.
3) Teng and I were planning to play golf in some place cooling.
4) He was just or even more keen then I am.
5) Parents did not really want me to go Tioman

So with all things in it place and elements..Kaboo..We are going Cameron.

Please forgive me my dear friends..don't get me wrong..its not that I just wanna glue to my boyfriend...just that sometimes things just happen in such a way..coincidence.

2009-07-02T06:14:00.000-07:00

I don't know why? But for the 2 years I was in AC..I felt bloody miserable you know? I always felt that I had no friends or something..well maybe I did not..so what if I am not one of those sporty arts girls or something..so what if I was not from MGS or SCG or St.Nics? I had always thought that there was something wrong with me..Seriously..I felt quite horrible...
I always felt like I was some geeky weird girl dating a short boyfriend..really didnt mean to shun my friends just that I really felt that I didn't fit in..Now that I m out of the college..I am more that happy to find out that I am not strange..Now in my new workplace..I am feeling really contented, I love all my colleagues..and I made lots of friends outside..so yea..it is really not my problem..I m soooooooooo happy!

I can survive!

2009-07-02T05:42:00.000-07:00

Haven't really spoken to Teng in 2 days..not because we fought or anything..but just we really don't have the time..Hmm strangely I feel alright..Perhaps I am really use to the distance already..not that it is a bad thing or anything but its just that I have grown out of my dependence on him..Use to have a hard time coping with not seeing and being with him everyday (since we used to do that for 2 yrs). I guess I am beginning to recognise the fact that we are 2 individuals...

At first I was afraid I was petrified Kept thinkin' I could never live without you by my side; But then I spent so many nights Thinkin' how you did me wrong And I grew strong And so you're back from outer space I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face I should have changed that stupid lock I should have made you leave your key If I'd've known for just one second you'd back to bother me Go on now, go walk out the door Just turn around now ('cause) you're not welcome anymore Weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye Did I crumble Did you think I'd lay down and die? Oh no, not.I. I will survive Oh as long as I know how to love I know I'll stay alive; I've got all my life to live, I've got all my love to give and I'll survive, I will survive. Hey hey. It took all the strength I had not to fall apart Kept trying' hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart, And I spent oh so many nights Just feeling sorry for myself. I used to cry But now I hold my head up high And you see me somebody new I'm not that chained up little person still in love with you, And so you feel like droppin' in And just expect me to be free, Now I'm savin' all my lovin' for someone who's lovin' me Go on now.. etc.

Men Vs. Women

2009-06-30T06:57:00.000-07:00

I am reading this book regarding gender differences hoping to learn more about relationships..
Hmmm..here is something that I ve learned..
Men have a fight or flight switch which comes on when dealing with situation, it is born in them..biological diability..lol..Notice whenever we say " We need to talk" they would try to avoid it..or pretend as if nothing happened..and that the four words (We need to talk ) is completely uncalled for... This is because the four words has triggered their flight mode in their mind..

And when they really wanna talk..they would start fighting..defending every part of their asses with something which sounds logical , or worst get damn bloody aggressive and mean..this is because, when they are forced to the brim, their brains would flip into the fight mode... so that they would prevent themselves from embarassment.

So ladies..I recommend a new four words which just might work for you .." I was just wondering.." this would catch them off guard..muahahah

Alright..I passed the annoying stage.

2009-06-28T21:25:00.001-07:00

Yesterday was Teng's Birthday Celebration with his family. Went to bottle tree park to have seafood. Bottle Tree Park is at Khatib..It is actually quite cool..it has this Malaysian Feel to it..There was a huge lake or river next to the park so that people can do the swan paddle thingy. Also, there were place to go prawning and fishing..Teng ordered crabs and lobsters and stingray!
The food was quite good..but the service was terrible..they were super short handed.

Well yesterday, was quite a good day generally..

2009-06-27T08:01:00.000-07:00

Please prove me wrong.

Am I the only idiot trying to renact the sparks of young love? I am worried . Seriously worried . Is this heading into some dull relationship? It seems like it. Everyone of our attempts to plan suprise have failed miserably . How the hell do you want me to feel? Like a happy , nice sweet understanding girlfriend? If you really want that..that I ll buy you a blown up plastic girlfriends which you can name Megan Fox or something. Not happening Mister. I can practically forsee myself with 2 kids and and a life of a mother cum maid. Though I understand that this is not one of those shammy puppy love relationships, but still, maybe it would be really nice if I could still feel like I am special and that someone still wants to date me. That I still make someone excited and anticipate how a date would go.

Honestly, I can't help but feel as if I am begging for your love, always planning little suprises . You sleeping all the time, everywhere ,does not exactly make me feel love and wanted. In fact, it tells me that you are bored with me, that you no longer cared whether I mind or not. There was a time not long ago where you were awake through out the few hours for which we spend together..But now it seems that you are always tired. How do you think it makes me feel? So is you sleepyness an issue to me? Hell yea.

Happy Birthday Chua

2009-06-23T22:21:00.000-07:00

Happy Happy Birthday Chua!

Dim Sum Buffet - Failed

2009-06-21T22:19:00.000-07:00

Hmm..Teng and I were planning on a Dim Sum Buffet double date with his badminton friends at the Peach Garden @ Thomson Plaza with Joanna and Soon Tat..unfortunately when we went there the place was bloody pack..only those with reservations could get in>> you know the feeling that you prepared you stomach for some food and then you can't eat it in the end..the sickening feeling..yea..felt that to the MAX!! We both starve ourselves for the meal la..wth..nevermind shall make bookings next time..

We ended up having Sushi Teh instead..do you know how big a difference my tummy had to handle? After the meal we went shopping at FairPrice Finest..I know how auntie that sounds, but it was really fun and we had enjoyed ourselves..

In the evening , after the double date had ended,Teng was nice enough to keep me company at night till my parents came home even though he was really tired and had wanted to go back home, just Nua (as Celestin Chia says ) on the bed for hours..Sweet.

I flipped

2009-06-17T22:23:00.000-07:00

Just the other day Teng told me about what stage he and his ex-s progressed till...I COMPLETELY FLIPPED! My brains short circuit..it was like BLACK OUT!@!
Images kept coming into my mind..Oh it was so terrible... Yes I know..we have been together for 2 yrs and stuff..but the thing is I always thought I was special. Guess I have been hiding in a bubble. Refusing to acknowledge the fact that this is just another relationship for him. And For me for that matter...I spoke to my sis about it ..she said " What do you expect boyfriendsand a girlfriends to do?" I expected boyfriends and girlfriends to do everything natural..But I dont expect ex-girlfriends and ex-boyfriends to do anything..if only i could delete his past...sigh..oh well it is not his fault anyway.. it was the past..what matters is the present. Spoof..easier said then done!
Wish I could have that sophistication and the character to do that!

Well since Teng decided to tell me this ..I decided to confess as well..
I didnt like him from the start..I liked someone else..But After that i changed to him..since he likes me...He flipped as well

That night we began to ramble on the origins of us getting together......Well truth is he didnt like me as well..Joanna kept telling him that I was not bad or something..then he decided to consider...Then a couple of misunderstandings and wrong signal..and then BOOM ..we have been together for 2 yrs..

This might not be your average love romantic story to start with..but yea it lasted us for 2 yrs..and still going strong..so suck that stupid young puppy love couples...so lovey dovey all..TELL YOU THE TRUTH..IT WOULD NOT LAST...That is a fairytale , This is REALITY..

Time Now 3.28pm

2009-06-17T00:28:00.001-07:00

Counting down to 6.00pm..Its still a long long way to go...Teng got posted to Sungei Gedong and would be staying in. Cant see him everyday now..well it is not like i can see him when he is working from 8-6pm basis..But its just the distance...Chua Chu Kang is soooo Far...I asked him to write me letters through pigeons..
Hmm..text him this morning ..have yet to reply..maybe he is busy with his work..but really wish I could be with him now. Hate to sound all sticky now..but work is boring and it sucks really..He is the first person i think about when life gets tough..

2009-06-15T09:11:00.000-07:00

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2009-06-15T08:34:00.000-07:00

I think we are starting to look alike !

Totally loving it!

2009-06-10T08:00:00.000-07:00

Love the blog skin because it reminds me of La Senza!

I feel really bimbotic using it though, who cares its my blog !

Watch out for the babe on the roads!

2009-06-09T21:44:00.000-07:00

I have passed my driving FINALLY!

Had my driving test this morning at 08:25am this morning..I got the fiercest tester of all..(I know him because my instructor once pointed out to me that he was the toughest nut!) He gave me this black face and was super impatient ." Hurry up go, they giving way to you already!" I deliberately took damn long when i was doing my vertical parking , to ensure that i have checked all my blindspots..haha..that kinda pissed my tester off.

After the test, he told me that my driving is not good and that i was borderline case...WHO CARES! HE PASSED ME ANYWAY!

After the test, i had to watch this scary video with victims of car accidents and stuff..WHO CARES ! I PASSED ANYWAY!

Cant wait to drive around Singapore!

Being A full time girlfriend

2009-06-08T22:23:00.000-07:00

Just the other day ..i was asking Teng if there were times when he wishes he was still single..
He was honest enough to tell me he did!
Well truthfully ..Sometimes I wish I was still single as well, then you would have the freedom of doing anything you want without worrying that your other half might not be angry...B
Being attach isnt the easiest thing to do..But it is rewarding sometimes...to know that you have a companion with you when you are sad..someone to share your secrets..not that you cant do that with your girlfriends but there is always a fear that they might judge you, therefore they might misunderstand you, worst still lose them as a friend.
If given a choice...I would still want to be attached!

2009-06-08T06:59:00.000-07:00

Budget Dates

2009-06-03T03:02:00.000-07:00

Teng and I are forever on a budget. Recently we have discovered a way to save up on our dates.

We usually go for dinner with either my parent or his parents then go for a movie after that . This would save up alot on dinner $$. Or we would go for hawker food then go for a nice place to chill to have desert! Well, sometimes I do get envious when I see my friends going on splurging on a date...But my poor boy earns $13 a day only!

I HATE FACEBOOK

2009-06-01T22:29:00.000-07:00

I wonder if it is just me or does everyone feel boring and loser like whenever they use Facebook.
Why does it always seem as if my friends are having so much fun clubbing and all while I doing administrative work? Amelia is clubbing 24/7 and my sister is having a fun time touring Germany. I get really bitter about my life whenever I log on to Facebook. It always seems as if the whole world is having so much fun, AND I AM LEFT OUT FROM IT. I shall boycott facebook from now on, that would make my life less miserable.

Chicken Soup?

2009-06-01T22:26:00.000-07:00